Happy birthday to my super pops! To celebrate, he’s hiking up Half Dome yet again with a bunch of his hiking buddies, including the newest addition to the group–ET’s dad. My dad said Mr. To has to summit a mountain before he can be initiated into the “take a fake peeing picture” club. Nice.

I haven’t felt very inspired to write lately. My workload has slowed down and so has my energy level. But I’m trying to get more active by running at least twice a week during lunch and also committing to the upcoming 8-week breakdancing session. By committing I mean paying in advance, which will force me to go. The thing is, it’s not like I DON’T want to go to breakdancing or capoeira. The hard part is just getting out of the apartment once I’ve gotten home from work, changed and eaten dinner. Yarn projects are tempting me to stay home!

Jennifer, Bobbie and I have agreed to do a knit-a-long of Starsky and I just bought the yarn for it. I have yet to finish Matt’s sweater because I ran out of yarn! Eek! To make matters worse, that yarn is out of stock at the moment, so I’m buying another one that I HOPE will be the same color. We’ll soon see.

I’m excited about the projects, yet scared to fail. But isn’t that with all risks in life? I admire people who launch themselves into new endeavors and shrug off the possibility of failure or making mistakes. I think those people are the ones who have the most achievements.

For the rest of us, we want to move out of our comfort zone and push ourselves to attempt something slightly more advanced than what we’ve been doing all along (i.e. a more technical knitting pattern, incorporating more moves into your capoeira game, picking up a new sport). The risk of failure or even making a fool of ourselves hinders us from fully putting our all into it–or keeps us from trying at all. But if we don’t try for the fear of failing, what kind of life do we end up living?

But even with that pep talk, I’m perpetually afraid of failing or of not being able to do something well. Too bad we don’t get graded on everything in life. If that were the case, I’d be pushing myself so hard just go get straight As in everything I do. haha. I’m such the nerd.