I really need to just close this binder of old blog entries for awhile, because I’m getting kind of sad reading everything, mainly about friends and memories in Sac and the Bay Area. When I read about the community of friends I grew up, which is so different even now when we’re all back in Sac together, it makes me wonder if we’ll ever have that same tight-knit group as before.

I think a lot of it has to do with many of my friends being guys and my being a girl. (really??) One entry talked about how I was hanging out with four of the guys (I’m assuming Matt O., ET, Jon and Josh) at the playground across from the Ongs’ house and how we were talking about how we thought things would be like in the future…who we’d be married to, where we would be living, etc. We also said we’d return to the playground every year to hang out. I remember trying to arrange that the following year (because, to me, you can’t mention doing something and NOT follow through!), and then being thoroughly disappointed and discouraged when no one else showed interest in doing it. Of those four, I’m most in touch with ET, occasionally Josh, but not Matt or Jon.

Or “getting together and making our stupid jokes from movies like T2 or Top Secret or joking about ceiling fans. It’s hard to imagine how many dumb inside jokes we have that make absolutely NO sense if anyone else hears them.” Or having study sessions at Buckthorn’s with Dorc and Kit, and saying “BRB” whenever we left the table to use the bathroom.

I’m definitely more into smaller groups now…like spending time with Dorc one-on-one as opposed to just getting a whole gang together to see everyone, although sometimes that is necessary if we want to see people. But overall, I think I am nostalgic for a time in history that cannot be brought back. And even if we were all brought back to Sacramento at the same time, things would still be different.